hole

BECCA: Does it ever go away?

NAT: What?

BECCA:This feeling.

NAT: No. I don't think it does. Not for me, it hasn't.

And that's goin' on 11 years.(pause) It changes though.

BECCA: How?

NAT: I don't know. The weight of it, I guess. At some point it

becomes bearable. It turns into something you can crawl out

from under and carry around--like a brick in your pocket. And

you forget it every once in a while, but then you reach in for

whatever reason and there it is: "Oh, right. That." Which can

be awful. But not all the time. Sometimes it's kinda...not

that you like it exactly, but it's what you have instead of

your son, so you don't wanna let go of it either. So you

carry it around. And it doesn't go away, which is.....

BECCA: What

NAT: Fine...actually.

"Rabbit Hole"