in the next weeks

* I have blood tests, pokings and a m'gram scheduled in the next weeks. I prod myself to investigate how I 'feel' about it all--something like analyzing a wound to determine its regeneration and pain. I imagine myself a kitten just fallen off the sofa for the first time="Hmmm. That was not too bad. I lived through that." Shake, shake. "Now I know what that is like and I lived through it and thrived." I lived through it all alone once and I will be okay this time if the numbers and shadings and bumps are not optimistic.